TWO MINUS ONE, 2016 — 2017
I’ve always wanted to escape; escape from myself, escape from the country, escape from reality.. but I cannot as so many things are holding me back. Frustrated with the situation, I found another way to calm and heal myself through movies, music and meeting up with new faces via dating apps.
At first, they were just some casual meet ups to get to know different cultures, to exchange life experiences, but it quickly turns into something more serious when I begin to develop feelings, deeper connections with certain individuals after I’ve met and spent some time with them. It was fun and sad at the same time, as each of those faces keep coming and going, like you plant a tree hoping it will bloom but also knowing it’s not going last long.
I used to think about all of this as a loss: people come, take a part of me with them, then leave; but later I realized that parts of them also remain here within me; and it is the most beautiful thing I’ve experienced from ‘dating in the digital age’ nowadays.